Monday, March 31, 2008

Reeling

Landon had his glucose fasting test this morning and his result was high. The nurse said the number should be between 60 and 110 and his result was 124. I also got the results from his random glucose test on Friday- a result of over 200 is indicative of diabetes and his was 230. The pediatrician wasn't in yet (the office let us in early since he's a baby who doesn't understand what "fasting" means), so she's going to call me later to discuss the results.

I don't know what to think right now. I just know that contrary to our hopes, the results this morning did not ease our minds or allow us to move on from this particular worry. My hands were shaking when I took Landon back out to the car. I didn't really think anything would come of this - in fact, we almost canceled the fasting test because he's been drinking normally and since we moved him up to the next size diaper he hasn't soaked through once. He just happened to seem thirsty, and just happened to be in small diapers, for the few days before his check-up, so I mentioned it to the pediatrician and she ordered the test since his finger was being pricked for the 9-month anemia and lead tests anyway. If the check-up had been this week I wouldn't have thought to say anything. And while I know it's wrong, and I know it's best to know something if it's there, part of me wishes I hadn't brought it up. Ignorance sounds nice right now.

Now I have to go sit through two hours of class without internet access when all I want to do is google "juvenile diabetes" and wait for my cell phone to ring.

20 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry. I hope everything turns out ok.
    Sarah

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  2. Oh no, not more health issues for Landon! Poor guy, I hope it turns out to be nothing. :(

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  3. I'm so sorry. I hope you find information and support that gives you the tools you need to deal with this next big thing -- which I very much hope comes to nothing.

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  4. When God looks over his store of babies waiting to come to Earth, then checks on parents available, He carefully picks JUST the right parents for each little One. It must seem overwhelming, regularly, with what you've had to deal with so far. But don't forget, You are the absolutely BEST parents for Landon. (Still known as "Squirmy" in my mind.)Many blessings on the three of you, and our continuing prayers.

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  5. Hang in there! My sister in law was diagnosed with J.D. at about Landon's age - she went on to become a ranked NCAA swimmer and is now (at 31) living a completely "normal" life (well, with the insulin pump!)
    I've been following your blog for much of the past year but didn't feel the need to post, until now -- I know this is scary but try not to be overwhelmed! This is a totally manageable disease, these days -- Landon will be FINE. I'll be sending good thoughts...

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  6. Argh! Well, first off, he hasn't been diagnosed with anything yet. But even if he is, it's a totally manageable condition . . . probably the worst part for him will be the denying food/water for the test!

    I know that must me so scary - hang in there!

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  7. That is scary. Try not to freak out until you hear from your doctor. It doesn't sound like Landon is off the charts. Perhaps this is something that can be managed with a proper diet. I'll be praying for you.

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  8. I'm so sorry, this sounds really scary! Good luck with the focusing in class. I'll be thinking about you.

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  9. Oh, jeez. Is there any reason to think that these numbers are anomalous?

    All I can think is that Landon is so incredibly fortunate to have been born to two caring, nurturing, and resourceful parents - you will roll with this the way you've rolled with everything else, and I know that someday, maybe, you can joke how you and Landon got your JDs the same year. :)

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  10. Awww, Im sorry this has been such a difficult couple months for you. I know you cant tell a mom to not worry...that's what moms do. But I bet everything will end up just fine. You love Landon so much - and that's something all babies need regardless of medical condition. I know you will be able to provide him all the care he needs to grow up nice and healthy!

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  11. I have been thinking of you a lot since you first posted about this. My daughter is Landon's age and my skinny, health-conscious husband was diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes two years ago.

    So yeah, this situation speaks to me on so many levels.

    Hang in there and my prayers are with you.

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  12. Oh, LL, I'm so sorry! What a ton of bricks. Hugs to you!

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  13. Hi LL,

    I remember being told that people with diabetes are often healther than the general population because they eat a balanced diet and monitor their health closely.

    In some ways it's great news, that you found out almost by accident, and a blessing that he will be able to be monitored and get treatment so soon. A bit more stress for you, but he's bound to stop getting unusual medical ailments soon!

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  14. I hope its nothing. But just in case it is, just think he will be the envy of all the kids in elementary school when he gets to have a mid-morning snack. I was always jealous of Jason and his cheese and crackers at 10am.

    Of course we'd rather he'd be healthy, but he will definitely be popular. Everyone always wanted some of Jason's snack.

    Again I hope it's not though.

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  15. wow, you really can't seem to catch a break, can you?

    Hope you find your silver lining.

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  16. Try not to worry--a friend of mine has been successfully dealing with Type One Diabetes for years now. She eats pretty much what she wants, and she's one of the most athletic girls at our school. I bet Landon will be fine.

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  17. Keeping fingers crossed for Landon, hoping its nothing.

    I know a bunch of the commenters are trying to be helpful with the "diabetes isn't that bad" and "its manageable" comments -- all true -- but first you as a mommy have to grieve a bit.

    Its what we do.

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  18. http://www.radiologyinfo.org/en/info.cfm?pg=dexa&bhcp=1

    De-lurking because I believe that this link reveals a connection between Type 1 (juvenile) Diabetes and increased risk of bone fracture. That information could explain the horrible circumstances you and your family endured. I hope for the very best for you and your family.

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  19. Obviously, it's just not right. Landon shouldn't have to go through life with one medical problem after another, you shouldn't be put through this kind of grief and fear, we should be able to come to your blog for regular doses of cute pictures, boring news about law school and home-buying, and exciting news about new shoes. I'm dismayed by the news, hopeful that it turns out better than we think it might, and confident that you will cope with everything as well and gracefully as ever.

    It's just that you shouldn't have to cope at all.

    Give Squirmy a hug, and I hope the surgery goes smoothly today.

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  20. maybe he just breaks down sugar slow? I do...especially when I was pregnant. I argued my way out of a diet restriction when I partially failed my long glucose test, stating that they made me drink way more sugar than I usually ingest in a week...(I totally have a salty tooth instead of a sweet tooth). I'll keep my fingers crossed that Landon is the same...

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