Scene: Our master bathroom, this morning.
Landon: I'm a big boy. And daddy is a big daddy. And Tex is a big doggie.
JP/Me: (nodding, making general noises of agreement while getting dressed)
Landon: And Rosie is a big doggie. And Lilly is a big kitty.
[I suddenly turn to the side, revealing to maximum effect my giant belly that is somehow made to look even bigger in my purple top.]
Landon, with eyes as big as saucers: And Mommy is a BIG Mommy.
JP, laughing: Yes, but we don't tell her that.
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So yes I am 66 weeks pregnant and have the belly to prove it. I've decided to start adding in the 35 weeks I was pregnant with Landon because only that number accurately reflects how pregnant I feel. Everything continues to go well so I shouldn't complain- I'm not swelling, my blood pressure is super low, and I have no stretch marks or any other nefarious pregnancy symptoms, but I am just so tired of it. I miss my waist and my old clothes. I miss the way I used to be able to turn to the side to pass by something. I desperately miss wine and now that it's getting warmer, miss the possibility of a frozen margarita on an outdoor patio. Each morning I remain surprised to find this giant belly attachment that I need to swing out of the bed along with me. I have 8 weeks to go, and annoyingly enough, even in my most negative "I hate being pregnant" mood, I really do want to stay pregnant for the majority of them.
People have asked if it's been different being pregnant for a second time. Yes and no. At first I thought it went by much faster- and it did, until right about now when it has slowed to the same crawl that I remember from last time. I know even more now that I should be enjoying these last few weeks of uninterrupted sleep and time along with my little boy (who has morphed right back to his usual utterly charming and tantrum-less self), and yet I'm just as impatient to meet our baby girl as I was to meet Landon. That and I just seriously hate being pregnant and I'm ready to get back being the only one living in my body.
There are few differences. This time around I am way less focused on my weight gain, to the point of not noting it at all. I didn't do anything to attempt to restrict or control my weight gain last time (obviously, since I was +38 lbs. when Landon was born 5 weeks early), I just remember thinking about it a lot and always being aware of where I stood. But right now I couldn't even tell you how much I'd gained, though I think it's about 25-30 lbs. More than I was hoping, but nothing I'm concerned about (good thing, since I just ate a cookie the size of my head after lunch). The other major difference in this pregnancy is that I haven't done any pregnancy or baby-related reading at all. I barely even skim the babycenter.com updates that arrive every week. I think last time those emails and articles were my only connection to motherhood and my baby, so I reveled in them; whereas this time I've got a Landon running around who is SO much more fun than a fetus and I don't always need to know what variety of vegetable my baby looks like this week. Physically I feel about the same- maybe a little more tired, but I think that's because I have a Landon I want to play with after work rather than just a couch that needs to be sat upon (and also, I'm at work all day rather than just being a school for a few hours). But overall I don't feel like it's been too different this time around.
Lastly, I want to thank you all so much for your wonderful, helpful comments on my c-section post. I got so much from reading your stories, the positive and the negative, and from your advice- I even copied a bunch of them into a Word document for JP to read. So thank you. Thank you for understanding this sentence of the post, "I knew I had already made my decision as to how future babies would be exiting my body" and responding with your comments, experiences, and insights rather than judgment. It was all of tremendous help to me and will likely be a help to other women who google their way to that post as well.
57 more days!
(Not that I'm counting.)
Update! I got JP to grudgingly snap a picture of me after work today. I really need to start taking them in the morning when I haven't had my makeup on for 12 hours. But here's my 66-week belly, forever frozen in time:
A Year-End Celebration of Colman Domingo
3 hours ago
You have a cute baby belly. Some people get big all over or get wider when they're expecting a girl. But you're still you, just with a basketball belly. So cute!
ReplyDeleteBTW - where are the shoes from? Can we get a separate picture of those? Do they have any heel to them or are they completely flat?
Hi Melissa, I LOVE those shoes. I got them at Target last summer. Sadly, I just checked online and they're not selling them anymore. However, DSW has the exact same pair under a different brand name for $40. While I'm glad mine were only $15, I would fork over $40 now that I know how much I love them. (And the edges are fraying on my Target pair, so maybe the DSW ones would hold up better.)
ReplyDeleteThey are completely flat and fall into my dressy/casual shoe category. I wear them to work with pants - they definitely break the dress code but all I ever get are compliments, and I'll wear them with casual skirts and dresses on the weekends.. I'm thinking about investing in the gold pair from DSW...
Yikes!
ReplyDeleteShe's went and gone all pregnant ... now how in the world did that happen?! :D
Thanks! I think these will look fabulous with some fun maxi dresses this summer.
ReplyDeleteYou look absolutely adorable!!! Can't wait to see who your baby girl looks like!
ReplyDeletePatty from TX
Hi...i've been reading your blog for a while and never got a chance to comment. You look great. Something about the pregnant look, I think it looks adorable.
ReplyDeleteYou know after reading your post about getting tired of being pregnant, I was remembering my first pregnancy. I really enjoyed it. I think the reason was because we kept the sex of the baby a surprise. I think it keeps you occupied and excited till the end :).
I noticed my sister in law too was very tired by the end of her pregnancy and she also knew the sex of the baby. Anyway, I think I am all the more convinced to keep my next baby a surprise also...:)
Congrats!! Hope you have a healthy baby girl.
Cute belly!
ReplyDeleteNo stretch marks? OMG I kinda hate you! And you're much too adorable. I looked like a hippo, but with stretch marks.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, you're getting close... and remember those margaritas are waiting for you!
I too hated being pregnant and found nothing about myself attractive the entire time, but I can honestly say that you are one cute little pregnant lady! And fear not, you will have plenty of warm summer weather post-pregnancy to enjoy some tasty frozen margs!
ReplyDeleteKids: Because we wouldn't want to get all full of ourselves or anything...
ReplyDeleteYou look great! Definitely got that glow thing happening for ya.