Catching Up

It's been over 2 weeks since I last posted. This is mostly because I've been at my parent's house in Houston for the past 2 weeks and we spend a lot of that time up at their lakehouse which has no internet access. This is also because I'm trying to decide what I want this blog to be for. Do I just want to keep it personal- for family and friends to keep updated on the pregnancy and JP and my lives in far-away Chicago? Do I to keep it a little more general about law school, law, politics, and all sorts of other things that could potentially be of interest to people who don't know me? Do I want to tell my family about it- even if that means I can't complain? Put it on my profile so friends can check it? I'm still not sure... anyway, we'll see where it takes me.

I'll post again later about the baby news and how it went when I told my family (def not as expected).

Done!

And at 12:12pm today, my 2L fall quarter was over and thank goodness!! The exhaustion is really starting to hit hard- all of a sudden my eyes will burn and I can't keep my head up. I feel like I've been awake for 48 hours straight. Studying was getting really really tough- especially the finals type studying where you feel like you can't take a break (or at least my kind of finals studying where you wait until 8 days before finals to begin). And this morning, about 30 min before my antitrust final I started feeling really queasy for the first time- so I think its a good thing I have the next 3 weeks off!

Now I can do all the things I've been wanting to do - read (even more) baby websites, read all my baby books, clean up/organize the apartment, enjoy Chicago at Christmastime... Yay for being a student and still getting breaks!

Still Drowning

I have 3 finals in the next 2 days. Today is my last full day to study and I can't figure out how to divide my time - do I simply abandon all hope in secured transactions and focus on crim pro and corporations? Do I divide the day equally and just see what happens? Do I focus exclusively on crim pro, the one class I fully understand, for hope of a great grade to counterbalance my future not-so-great ones? Is it better to have 3 mediocre grades or 1 fantastic and 2 bad? Obviously I'm wasting time figuring out how to divide my time...

Next quarter, I vow that I will be better prepared. I will not wait until SIX DAYS before my 4 finals begin to START studying. I will not allow myself to feel like a stressed and overwhelmed 1L again. (I'm pretty sure I said this at the end of spring quarter last year...)

I had a bit of excitement yesterday when, at lunch, I get a frantic phone message from JP. He was "supposed" to fly to DC this morning for his investment banking firm's annual meeting and holiday party. He had a huge project he was supposed to bring with him that he was planning to work on all day yesterday. The phone message said, "Oh my god. My flight leaves today at 3pm. I haven't packed, the project isn't done, I don't know what to do. Call me." This was at 12:15, he works 40 min. from home and the airport is 30 min. from home. I had to leave the library (and my parking spot!), drive 25 min home, pack him, throw his suitcase at him, and then drive 25 min. back and find a parking spot at 1:30pm. I was NOT happy. How in the hell does someone forget what day they are flying somewhere. And his entire office was on the same flight- how was he the only one unaware of its departure date? Because these questions are unanswerable I just fumed on the car ride over, tried to give him a loving good bye (if the plane goes down I don't want my last words to be "Are you an idiot?!!") and then fumed on the way back. I think it was good for me- my frustration about finals got focused on a person who knew he had to accept my yelling because he screwed up. JP is now safely and happily being wined and dined in DC, and I am safely and (not quite so) happily esconced in the library.

Back to creating my study schedule!

It's Positive!!!!!!

Ahhh!! I left the library early b/c I couldn't get it out of my head that I might actually be pregnant. I got home, took a test, and there was a + sign! I half cried, half laughed, and really wished I wasn't alone in my apartment. JP called and said he was coming home early (at 2pm) b/c of the terrible weather and snow storm here in Chicago. I walked over to Walgreens and got a baby card, put the pregnancy test in a ziploc bag, and wrapped it up :)

He was so excited too! We don't really know what to do with ourselves. On the one hand I have 4 finals in the next week so I Really need to study, but I'm going to be a momma! That's so much bigger than finals! We are going out to celebrate tonight- I can learn secured transactions tomorrow...

Now the big dilemma is what to tell who, when. I always thought we'd wait a while but I'm already bursting. We're going to my parent's house for Christmas, so I think we'll tell them then. I have no idea when we'll get back to Texas again and I'd like to do it in person.

What an incredibly great day :)

Maybe...

I haven't even told JP this yet, but I'm 3 days late... I'm (very secretly) hoping I might be pregnant! Which would be funny b/c we were supposed to start trying in December- it would be quite ironic (and only slightly problematic) if it happened by accident in November!

I would only be able to work for half the summer, but I wouldn't have to worry about taking 2 weeks off of classes and coming back so soon after having the baby... just writing it down makes me scared that I'm really hoping this is it!

We'll see... if nothing happens I'll take a test tomorrow morning.