Thursday, December 31, 2009
I was a baby.
A baby with her first boyfriend, who had received her first kiss only 6 months prior, spent most of her time swimming, and planned to go to med school, be a doctor, and get married at 30.
And then I graduated high school, broke up with the first boyfriend (who was a great guy and whose positive influence on me and my self-esteem I am just fully beginning to grasp), had hip surgery, went to college, drank a lot, met JP at a bar after the first week of class, fell head over heels in love, quit swimming, got mono and spent 5 days in the hospital, fell even more in love, drank more, went sky diving, broke up with JP for a hellish few months, adopted a kitten, got back together with JP, decided to go to law school, graduated college, decided to get married, planned the wedding, finally got engaged, toured all around Europe for 5 weeks, got married at 22, moved to Chicago, started law school, had a baby at 24, graduated law school, bought a house, moved to Austin, adopted two labs, passed the Bar, started working in my first full-time job, became a litigator, and got pregnant again.
Whew. It's been an amazing 10 years. There's been some bad stuff in there, but mostly an enormous amount of good, and 2009 has been a great cap to an eventful decade. Nothing too big happened (besides the getting pregnant part, but that'll be bigger news next year), we mostly just floated along in our happy lives. We've found a groove that works for us most of the time. I love my job, I adore my family, and I'm nothing but optimistic about the future.
Now if only I could finish this motion...
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I'm having a hard time believing that Christmas is over and today is a work day. I took off yesterday and was continually perplexed by all the emails buzzing on my blackberry- I kept forgetting it was a Monday and there were people in my office actually working on legal things.
I've been busy too, just not on anything billable. On Saturday I cleaned the whole house and carefully put away all our Christmas decorations in labeled bins. My mother-in-law was horrified as she keeps most of her Christmas decor up year-round, a practice that horrifies me. JP installed the gorgeous new ceiling fan I picked out for our bedroom (our old one was ugly, didn't match, and made a clicking noise that was slowly driving me insane) and hung up my pretty picture frames on the walls. Our bedroom is now complete and I love it. It's like a modern little hotel room totally separate from the rest of the house.
On Sunday we went to Green Pastures for brunch. If you live in Austin, I HIGHLY recommend heading over one Sunday. It's a little pricey ($35/person) but it is in a gorgeous historic home on 7 acres, the service and food are incredible, the highly alcoholic milk punch and homemade juice blend are included -- and, best of all, the grounds are home to a few dozen peacocks (or "peafowl" as I just learned from their website; only the male is a peacock, the female is a peahen). It's great for a special occasion and Landon was enchanted by the Christmas decor, the piano player, and especially the "big birdies".
Landon: I want to give it a kiss.
Mommy: I don't think peacocks like kisses. Let's just look. From a distance.
This peacock refused to show me his pretty feathers. Apparently I am not attractive as a mate.
The albino peacock dug himself a little hole - I wondered if the other peafowl made fun of him.
We managed to get another good picture of the 3 of us (3.5?)- of course the only two I got this year were both taken after we sent out our Christmas cards. I've decided that the two pregnancy pounds I've gained so far are split among my cheecks and my boobs, which seems odd given that the baby is in neither of those places. But I still like the picture, Landon looks so proud to be wearing his new "I'm so handsome" sweater vest.
Last night we ate at Z Tejas and Landon kept sticking his head under the table. When we asked what he was doing, he said, "looking for the peacocks!" We thought that was a great idea and he stayed busy looking for those wily birds for most of dinner.
The in-laws left early this morning and while the visit went fine, eight days is a very long time and it's very, very nice to have our house back to ourselves. JP no longer has his angry eyes on all the time and I can relax for the first time in a week and enjoy a quasi-day off while working in the study. The boys are building a comlicated train/block city in the play room and I can watch them from my desk. It's cold and rainy outside, the dogs are at my feet, and Lilly is in her Nordstrom box. All is well.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
This has been such a fun Christmas. Having a two-year-old who is a little ball of delight with no idea that presents are involved in this time of Christmas lights and Christmas trees, which were worthy of clapping and much celebration all on their own, has been just beyond awesome. I drove to Wal-Mart early this morning to pick up a few things and almost exclaimed, "oooh lights!" to myself in the car.
To tell my favorite parts of our Christmas story, I first have to take you back to Christmas Eve. I had a nice little outfit for Landon which involved a button-down shirt and sweater vest. The vest caused great protest, and while attempting to convince him to wear it, I told him how handsome he would look. This had no effect, but we still managed to get it on him by the time we left for church.
Many hours later, after a long and delicious dinner which ended with Landon "resting" on a little couch by the coat closet, we were back at home getting him ready for bed. As I pulled off his vest and unbuttoned his shirt, he suddenly looked up at me and said, "I'm so handsome mama?"
Sometimes he makes me want to hug him so tight and them freeze time for at least 3 years so I can properly soak him up.
Even later that night, I played hostess and co-Santa Claus, and set the table for Christmas brunch while JP assembled one of the morning's big ticket items- a Spider Man big wheel from my parents. It came in many pieces.
Once the gifts were wrapped and assembled, we left the Julbock on duty and headed to bed drunk on the power of being Santa Claus and filled with excitement for the next morning- excitement which had nothing to do with any presents we might be receiving ourselves. (The Julbock is a Swedish straw goat that guards the presents; Landon fell in love with him when we decorated the tree and gave him pets every night before bed.)
Christmas morning was a bit overwhelming. Landon's living room looked very different and everyone was staring at him.
But he caught on. As it turns out the stocking thing is pretty fun. As is opening lots of presents. One such present was Dinosaur Roar!, an awesome pop-up book that makes Landon giggle.
He also made out with a big red chair with his name on it (he's very into his name right now and likes it to be on everything), a Little People farm, Mr. Potato Head, a few puzzles, the painstakingly constructed Spider Man big wheel, and from his boring parents- a 529 college savings plan. Someday he'll find that cooler than the big wheel, I'm sure of it.
We spent the rest of the day eating (brunch was delicious and full of quiches, fruit, and sugar cookies), going on walks, and watching Madagascar 2 ("Sir, we may be out of fuel." "What makes you think that?" "We've lost engine one, and engine two is no longer on fire." I freaking love the penguins.).
The dogs got treats, two toys, and lots of pets for Christmas. Lilly got a box top. She was thrilled.
I hope you all had a fun and restful few days- if you can manage to have a two-year-old around for your next holiday, I highly recommend it. Even with three in-laws in my house and the all the tensions and baggage that comes with that, the past few days have been more fun than I've had in a long time. I can't wait until next year when we'll be experiencing this with two kids!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
I took a forced mini-break from blogging. All the posts I wrote in my head on Monday through Wednesday were neither happy nor positive. I was extremely busy and stressed at work. I was angry at the internet for ruining a loving tribute to my husband and keeping me up at night thinking of responses to rude and frequently incorrect commentors. I cried on the way home from work on Tuesday because it was 6:30 and I'd just found out JP hadn't started a dinner that took 90 minutes to cook and I'd been so busy I'd skipped lunch and I was starving and pregnant and my in-laws were landing in Austin in 30 minutes and I was stressed out beyond belief. It wasn't a good few days.
But today? Today was an awesome day. I finished up all my work last night and then curled up with JP to watch The Hangover. I can't remember the last night we spent more than 30 minutes together on the couch. I was so relaxed it felt sinful.
Also on Wednesday, in between exchanging drafts on a brief that's being filed Monday, I whipped up a triple batch of my great-grandmother's Swedish sugar cookie dough.
It was hard to allow my counter to get this messy without stopping to clean it up, but I persevered. I also ate a few cookies worth of dough- I forgot how much better it is when it's homemade. And when it's my great-grandmother's recipe.
Today, we baked and decorated the cookies. I had never made my great-grandmother's cookies by myself. Once I started, I realized that while I'd decorated these cookies in every year of my childhood, I'd never actually watched my mom cut and cook them. It was tricky. And messy. And took a very long time.
But it was so fun to know I was recreating a piece of my childhood for Landon. I even had Christmas music playing loudly in the background- all CD's that my brother copied from my mom's albums the first year JP and I were married. I'm not even sure I like many of the songs, they're just such a part of Christmas I can't imagine December without them.
This is what happened when I turned my back to take a few trays out of the oven. Landon pushed over his step stool and picked up the cookie cutting where I'd left off. He's such a good helper.
The decorating was done swiftly as we took a break between baking and icing for Landon's nap-time and mommy and daddy's gift wrapping time. We resumed at 3:00, knowing we had to leave for church at 4:00. JP and I were all about efficiency, but Landon took great care with each cookie. He was so proud of each finished product and he kept looking at JP and my cookies and encouraging us saying, "oh, they're so pretty!" I adore this kid.
After church we broke with my family's traditions and switched over to JP's and ate Christmas Eve dinner at a very fancy restaurant. The bill was probably more than what I spent on all the presents I bought combined, but it was very tasty and it's the kind of thing my in-laws really enjoy. I had to break my firm "no kids at nice restaurants" rule, but Landon was extremely good and since it was Christmas Eve, most of the tables had children at them.
In my family we normally open all our gifts on Christmas Eve, but we got home from dinner a little after Landon's bedtime, so we tucked him in and put off everything until tomorrow. It's a good thing I'm so grown up now or I wouldn't be able to stand having to wait another 12 hours.
I hope you all are enjoying a wonderful holiday. This is our first year to play Santa and I love being this excited about Christmas. I can't wait for tomorrow morning!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
One of the most wonderful things about this holiday season has been Landon's overewhelming excitement over every part of it. He's old enough to know something special is happening, but too young to know he's supposed to expect presents at the end of it all. There is such an innocence about his joy that it has made things I've long since stopped finding impressive suddenly more exciting than I ever remembered.
Take Christmas lights. They're pretty, I like them, but I can't remember when I last stopped my car to exclaim over them. But now I find myself pointing them out to Landon like I've never seen mini lights on a string before.
I didn't realize it, but apparently I frequently refer to the lights as "so pretty" when Landon is in the car. Friday, when Landon and I were walking around our circle to admire the lights he stopped in front of one very decorated house and said reverently, "Is it so pretty mama?" And as I stood next to my little man, I honestly thought it was one of the prettiest things I'd ever seen.
We decorated our tree a few nights ago. It's not a very big tree, but I think it's very handsome.
Landon was so excited about the ornament placement- another thing I'd forgotten was so fun. He fell hard for a red ball and kept moving it from one branch to another. Then he pointed out every ornament for me to name, over and over, until it was time for bed.
Tonight we visited a home in our neighborhood, the self-dubbed "Griswold Family Trail of Lights." It was awesome. Landon nearly passed out from excitement. And I got a huge kick out of their next-door neighbor's decoration.
The trail went all the way through the family's backyard and side yard. I promised Landon we'd go back every night until Christmas. As we drove away he said, mostly to himself I think, "It was so pretty."
We spent 8 hours at various car dealerships yesterday and I cried at one of them.
Not because I was pregnant and tired and hungry (though I was all of those things) and not because I had entertained a toddler for 8 hours (though I'd done that too)- and not even because JP had been playing one dealer off another for hours and couldn't make up his god damn mind about which car he wanted. No, it was because of his answer when I walked him over to a corner of the dealership and demanded to know which car he wanted. See one had fancier features than the other- it was the first car we saw (at a different dealership), the only one he test drove, and I knew he loved it. But the other one, which was also very nice, had been bargained down to a ridiculous price that would have cost us $3,000 less over 6 years. I no longer cared about price, it was 8:15 and I wanted to go home. But he looked at me, so torn, and said, "I can't do this to my family. I can't make us pay more just because I like the upgraded car."
I blinked at him a few times, a million things flooding into my head as to why he could absolutely ask us to pay an extra $40 a month so he could have the car he loved -- things like the fact that he always deposits his birthday and Christmas money into our account and then never spends it; that he hasn't bought new clothes or shoes in four years; that he eats a PBJ at home every day rather than buy food at school like I always did; that he goes out with friends and doesn't drink to avoid a bar tab, saying he can have a much cheaper beer at home; that he never, ever questions my purchases even during all the years that he worked and I didn't; that even before we were married and I lived off him and our money really was his money, he never once referred to it that way; that he never asks for anything... But mostly I thought of Chicago and how he worked such long hours and had a 60-90 minute one-way commute and he still got up with Landon every other time he woke up. Even though I was a student and I could (and did) skip class and sleep. Even though he woke up early to swim at cheap pool that was 30 minutes in the wrong direction. Even though there were mornings that I was so exhausted I'd stay in bed and start to cry and JP would get up and do another feeding even though he was even more tired than I was. And then he'd go to work for 12 hours and come home and get right back in the rotation with me. He never once referenced the fact that I was a student and he was working full-time and I was the mother and I had more free time- he just did it. Because he was the other parent and why wouldn't he?
I thought of all that and started crying (I'm crying again now typing it out)-- then gave him a hug and spent 2 minutes trying to tell him through my blubbering that we were leaving to go back to the first dealership and driving home in the fancy car because it had everything he wanted but wouldn't ask for. As I was choking that out, JP was looking at me like I'd lost my mind, Landon was looking worried, and I started to laugh because my nose was running and I had no kleenex and I was a ridiculous mess.
An hour later we drove home in this.
We ended up with a pretty good deal since even though I no longer cared how much it cost, JP did, and he called up dealership #1 on the way over to tell them how low we got dealer #2. They knocked off another $1,000 and JP felt better. I was just glad we could finally go eat dinner.
But it is a beautiful car and JP is so excited. The first thing he did this morning was go into the garage and then run back into our room to tell me the whole garage had a new car smell. We drive our cars forever (before last night both of our cars were more than 10 years old) so he better soak up that smell while it lasts. But it is nice to have a car made this decade and to know it's under an all-inclusive super extended warranty for 6 years.
And mostly, it's nice to know one of the most amazing and giving husbands and fathers I know got something he so wanted and deserved. Even if I had to make a fool of myself in front of ten random car salesman to get him to understand that.
Friday, December 18, 2009
That's 15 hours of sleep. JP must have canceled his lessons, picked up Landon, made dinner, cleaned up the kitchen, put Landon to bed, and checked on me. I have no memory of any of it though JP said that I said "night night" to Landon when he came in before bed. I hate that I missed an entire day- it's very disorienting. But one of the many advantages of having a husband who is as involved in the daily running of the house and child as I am is that he can handle everything on his own without any trouble at all.
Today I still have some echoes of the headache if I shake or move my head too quickly, but it is nothing like it was yesterday or the days before. I am extremely behind in my work, but everyone has been very understanding and my assignments have been reduced to bare essentials. I've also had deadlines extended, but with Christmas coming up I'd rather get them done sooner than later. Landon's daycare Christmas party is today and we don't have presents for the teachers, so JP is just stopping at Starbucks to get everyone gift cards. It's not very personal (I'm hoping to write some cards real quick at the start of the party), but who doesn't like free over-priced coffee? We're still car shopping tomorrow, but I've resigned myself to it and we'll find a way to cut back more each month to afford it. JP's business situation still sucks in a huge way, but it should all end soon.
So it's better. When I went up to get Landon this morning the first thing he said was, "Mama still has boo boo?" He said it very quietly and then gave me lots of kisses on my head. I'm so lucky to two such great men in my life to take care of me. And thank you all for your kind comments over the past two days. I'm hoping to keep this headache at bay through the rest of the holidays.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
It's not quite like it sounds. I have a medical need. On Monday afternoon I started getting a headache. And by "started getting a headache" I mean sharp pains started shooting around in my forehead. I've had frequent, terrible headaches since 9th grade, so I just took some tylenol and tried to ignore it. By that night the ache had settled in the back of my head and was so painful I could barely blink or move. I woke up Tuesday morning with the same pain, but worked through it all day by taking tylenol and telling myself it was helping. Last night it was so bad I started to get scared. This morning it was still there so I gave in and called my doctor. She was concerned and prescribed two Vicodin and told me to go home to bed, and if I don't sleep it off, I am to come in to the office tomorrow morning for testing.
While I've been battling this horrific headache, we found out that JP's car needs $3,000 worth of repairs. Since it's worth only $3,500, and will probably just keep needing more repairs, we've resigned ourselves to replacing it- we might as well put that $3,000 towards a few months of car payments. I am extremely unhappy about this sudden unplanned expense, and maybe even more unhappy about spending my one weekend at home pre-Christmas and pre-inlaws at various car dealerships. I should be excited about one of us owning a car that was made in the last decade, but the truth is I couldn't care less about the model or age of our cars, I just want them to run, and I would so much rather direct that monthly payment to my loans or our retirement accounts. In fact the whole idea of picking out and paying for a car at the last minute is too stressful for me to think about right now, so we'll move on to the next thing.
JP's partnership is still winding up and it remains painful and fury-inducing to watch. It is also deeply disappointing to see someone I thought was a friend turn into someone I want nothing to do with. It is sad to me that Landon will soon forget about someone he used to call uncle. And most of all it hurts to watch JP do the work to dismantle his dream.
Work is fine, but extremely busy and my leaving at 2 p.m. today to hide in bed is not helping. My personal to-do list is completely out of control thanks to hosting Christmas and being away for the last two weekends, though at least a lot of those items are things I would like to have done and not things that must be done. My work tasks are not so optional and stress is going to set in if I don't get started on some of them soon.
My in-laws arrive in 6 days (and are staying for 8) and I feel too emotionally raw to handle it. This week has just so thoroughly sucked and my head has hurt so badly without a break- I was even aware of the pain as I slept.
This might be my worst blog post ever and I'm sorry, I'm just down. I'm rarely down and I don't like it. My parents never tolerated self-pity and I was raised to always, always see the positive, or if there is truly none, to have hope and work towards changing the situation. Maybe if this Vicodin and a good night's sleep do their magic, I can start thinking that way tomorrow.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I left out one special little detail about Landon and my trip to Houston. On Saturday night I got back from the bridal shower around 12:30 a.m., had a terrible stomach ache (possibly related to the three cake pops I ate), and fell asleep a little after 1 a.m.
At 3:15 there was a loud wail and cry for MOMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEE coming from my brother's old room. It was Landon and he was pissed. Once I calmed him down, he was wide awake. He wanted nothing to do with the strange pack 'n play on the floor of the strange room and kept asking to go on a walk to the park. I explained that it was dark outside and everyone was sleeping. We walked to the window to investigate the darkness. Landon nodded his head seriously and asked if the sun was hiding. I applauded myself on our ability to reason through problems, and told him, yes, the sun was hiding and it would come out after he went back to sleep and woke back up in the morning. He nodded again and then said, "I can walk in the dark." Damn the infallible logic of a 2-year-old.
From then on nothing I did mattered. I tried lying down next to his pack 'n play on the floor, which worked until I got cold, thought he was sleeping, and tried to crawl out of the room. Many minutes of screaming later I tried sleeping in my brother's bed next to the pack 'n play. Every five minutes Landon would ask where I was and then he'd want to chat. We tried walking again but he threw a fit when I wouldn't let him have his morning breakfast bar. "It's not morning yet," I explained reasonably. Landon responded by throwing the biggest tantrum he'd thrown since June.
I called JP at 4:45, crying, while Landon flopped about on the floor next to me. I kept asking him why we were doing this again. I'd forgotten what it was like to be this tired, to want your child to sleep so badly it hurts. I was reliving Landon's first nine months and was certain I couldn't survive it a second time.
At 5:30 my mom came upstairs. I had put Landon back in the pack 'n play to scream while I sat up in my bed staring catatonically at the wall with the lights on. She took the little demon downstairs so I could sleep and drive back to Austin without killing us both. Landon never went back to sleep and acted impervious to my glares when he bounced cheerfully into my room to say good morning a few hours later.
I rounded out the morning by feeling more nauseous than I had in weeks and throwing up repeatedly in my parent's bathroom. The last time I threw up was 1L year after I drank two bottles of wine at law school prom. I'm sure it was somehow Landon's fault.
Yesterday I had my 14 week check-up. JP told Landon that mommy was going to the doctor check on the baby, and Landon said he wanted to give it a kiss. (I'm pretty sure he thinks there's a ready-made baby hanging out at the doctor's office just waiting for us to take him/her home.) He settled for giving me a kiss and huge hug and then waved and blew kisses as I backed out of the driveway. At the doctor's I heard the whoosh whoosh of a strong heartbeat, and suddenly the phrase, "I can't believe we're doing this again" didn't sound nearly as dire as it had at 4 a.m. Sunday morning.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Our weekend in Houston was a good one. It started on Thursday with my firm's family holiday party. Landon helped me finish up my work before heading down to the conference center. He thinks anywhere the clients give you toy electric cars is a pretty awesome place to work.
We met Santa (a partner in our corporate section). Landon was very excited about him from a distance, but upon closer inspection he decided he wanted nothing to do with that strange man's lap. So the two of them had a nice conversation about trains instead.
Next we decorated a square for the gingerbread house. Landon very carefully placed the candies on the frosting and then when I wasn't looking, placed every single one of them in his mouth. The square is now sitting proudly in the middle of the roof of the house with nothing but some smeared frosting and a few red hots I dumped on at the end.
After the party JP went to coach lessons and then spend three days at home by himself (I always try to remember that he spent the first 18 years of his life as an only child without me to keep him company, and he's had such a crazy semester with school, the swim school, and spending every spare minute with Landon and me), while Landon and I packed up to head to Houston. While I was gathering documents in my office to take to the deposition on Friday, I mentioned to Landon that as soon as I was done we were heading to Papa and GG's house. He immediately jumped up, grabbed my hand, and yelled, "Come ON Mama, Come ON!!" Very cute.
My depo went well, I had thoroughly prepped the partner and I even proved my worth at the table by supplying several names and dates that people couldn't remember. Sometimes I wonder what I will do with this extensive timeline of information once this case ends. Landon spent the day with his godmother and had a wonderful time with her. I attended my best friend's super fancy bridal shower on Saturday night - I think it cost more than my wedding and it was in a house that is about the same size as my office building. Lots of wow.
On Sunday Landon and I headed home to reunite with a JP who was very happy to see us. Apparently he's so used to the craziness now that he gets lonely without it. We picked out our Christmas tree, and because our house really has no natural place to put it, it's living by the window in Landon's playroom. He is SUPER excited about this.
The first thing he muttered when he woke up this morning was, "I wanna go see my tree in my playroom" -- and it is always referred to as "my tree in my playroom." Helps us distinguish it from all those other trees we have in our house.
This Christmas is going to be so much fun.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
First of all, after you hear the five options to direct your call, the polite-sounding gentleman says in a completely serious voice, "to hear a Pirate read these options press 6". This had nothing to do with my re-order, but it made me smile.
Second, after a brief chat with a customer service rep wherein I fessed up to my grievous typo and asked if the cards had been processed yet, I ended up with a 75-card credit and free next day shipping on my reorder. My new cards may get here before the original ones! I initially just asked if the order could still be changed and she said no, they were in production, but she told me I could return them for a credit. I was very happy and surprised to hear that, and then when I asked if I could go ahead and order the new cards now and leave the refund credit for a future, separate purchase (because I was concerned about getting the cards out for Christmas) she placed me on hold and worked some magic to get me an instant card credit as long as I promise to send the typo cards back when I receive them.
So that was full of awesome and holiday cheer. And now my morning is feeling all shiny and happy, even with this Answer and Plea to the Jurisdiction that was supposed to be done yesterday hanging over my head. To make the day even better, this afternoon is our family Christmas party, so JP is bringing Landon to the office at 3:30 for cookie decorating and Santa Claus sitting and other fun activities in the conference center. After the party Landon and I head to Houston so I can attend a deposition tomorrow morning and Landon can hang out with his godmama for the day. We'll stay through the weekend since I haven't been home since July and Saturday is my best friend's fancy lingerie shower (for the wedding I was supposed to be in but now probably can't even attend because it's in Houston 10 days before I'm due). JP came across her present yesterday and was most disappointed it was not for me.
In sum, it's okay to want to redo your Christmas cards because there's a typo, call customer service reps when you've screwed up your order and be nice to them, I like Shutterfly and Shutterfly likes pirates, Landon is going to decorate his first cookie today and I think it may be a life changing experience, and I am excited about going home even if it means I will spend yet another pre-Christmas-weekend not accomplishing things in my own house. Happy Thursday everyone!
Yesterday in a fit of productivity, and an overwhelming need to cross a few things off my two-page Christmas to do list, I created and ordered 75 Christmas cards on shutterfly.com. We never got a good family picture this year, probably because everyone around me is allergic to cameras, so I made a collage of four favorite pictures of Landon with JP or I and one with just Landon and his giant smile. I wrote a little Christmas message, signed it Love, [JP], [LL], and soon to be big brother Landon, entered in about four savings codes, and got them for a great price and free shipping. All while on a two-hour conference call.
I felt good. I had accomplished multiple things (the photo calendars I also ordered are for my in-laws; I can't shop in their price range, but they do love pictures of their grandson) and now we could get our Christmas cards out by Christmas. My productivity buzz lasted through our firm's annual Champagne Party and the first thing I did when I got home was to bring up my masterpiece online for JP to see. (He did not attend the party; we have decided it is not worth the stress for him as a huge introvert to have to socialize with so many people at once, or the stress for me in worrying about him the whole time and then yelling at him on the way home for not talking to anybody.) The first thing out of his mouth-- "Shouldn't that say 2010?"
Oh yes, yes it should. You see for the Christmas message I wrote, "Happy Holidays and Best Wishes for 2009!"
AHHHHHHHHHH. I blame the conference call. And rushing. And not believing we're about to hit 2010.
But it is killing me. I actually dreamed about it last night. Twice. In the first dream I was able to call up shutterfly and beg for a chance to re-do it for free and they gave it to me and I was so happy I woke up. The second time I couldn't get them to redo it, so I added a P.S. to our Christmas letter saying that while we hoped they everyone had a great 2009, we also extend our best wishes for 2010.
After grinding my teeth for 8 hours I'm now just thinking about re-ordering them. It will cost about $45. What would you do? (You know, if you were me, and you kept a little book of your yearly Christmas cards and letters, and if mistakes and typos kill you slowly from the inside, and while the idea of wasting $45 also hurts me, I've done virtually no shopping or erranding in the last two months and this could be a Christmas present to myself, like a pair of shoes I never saw to buy.) But is it ridiculous to re-order because of a little date error? Does it matter if it's ridiculous? JP just laughed when I shared my dilemma and said whatever I wanted was fine. Help!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
I just spent 52 hours here:
and it was everything I knew it would be. I walked until the soles of my feet felt bruised, talked until my throat was hoarse, and ate Chicago Mix popcorn until my fingers were stained yellow.
I also found time to buy a few very cute maternity items, including a pair of jeans that make me feel sexy despite their elastic topped waist band. On Sunday I picked up a few Christmas gifts and Chicago-themed stocking stuffers for Landon.
And I'm still pleased with his Chicago snow globe even if the damned thing cost me $20 on the flight home because it counts as a "liquid" and I had to check my bag. I never, ever check bags. I pack lightly and own every toiletry in mini-size. I felt defeated as I pulled my suitcase out of the security line to the ticket counter to check it. But Landon is going to love that snow globe. I will make sure of it.
It's so wonderful to return to a city you knew and loved. It's even better when you have a good friend to stay with and more friends to meet up with to eat 2" thick pizza. I missed my boys, but unlike a business trip where I have nothing to do but listen to the silence in my hotel room and miss the craziness of our usual evening routine, this trip was filled with talking and laughter and shopping. It was everything I needed to reconnect with my friend and my favorite city.
It was the best Christmas gift JP could have given me and I love him even more for making it so easy for me to pick up and leave without having to worry about a thing back at home. He told me not to bring anything back for him from Chicago as he had no desire to remember it, but I did bring Landon a daddy-approved souveneir cowboy hat from the Austin airport.
I can't wait to bring my little Chicagoan to visit his birthplace one day. Maybe next year- JP already volunteered to stay home and visit the Alamo with the Texas baby.
Friday, December 4, 2009
I will be in Chicago tomorrow. I fly out at 9 a.m. and will spend 52 glorious hours with my friends in my favorite city before I head home Monday afternoon to my current city, which I also love, even though it FREAKS OUT at the mere possibility of a few snow flurries. (It is actually snowing outside my office window and it's making me very happy.)
This month is starting to look borderline stressful. I'm not stressed yet, and don't plan to be, but it has all the makings of it. I'm out of town this Sat-Mon. Then I'm in Houston for work next Friday. Landon is coming with me on the business trip so we can stay over with grandma and grandpa for the weekend. Which means the first weekend I'll be in my own house this month is Dec. 19th, and my in-laws arrive on the 22nd and stay for EIGHT DAYS. I haven't decorated the house yet, we don't have a Christmas tree, and JP hasn't put up the lights. We also have about 65 Christmas parties to attend and for the first time ever I don't have our Christmas cards ready to go by now. We don't even have a decent picture of the three of us to put on it. We still have to work around JP's freaking swim lesson schedule (lessons we will now never be paid for- I have soooo much to say about that, but none of it good, so silent I will try to remain) and work is very busy. I don't usually get caught up in holiday stress- I have modest expectations for Christmas and just enjoy the bonus family time, but there are certain things that need to be done and working full-time with two trips in the first half of the month is making it challenging. Oh, and I'm pregnant, so accomplishing anything at night- beyond activating my DVR- is relatively impossible.
On the upside, I have finished all my Christmas shopping (yay internet! I didn't buy a single thing in an actual store) and I'm hatching a plan to leave work early today to take Landon out to buy our tree. And I'm going to be in CHICAGO tomorrow- it's been 18 months and I miss the city so much. Especially now when it'll be all chilly and snow dusted and lit up for Christmas. I plan to walk miles and miles around State St. and Michigan Ave., eat gallons of Garrett's Chicago Mix popcorn (something that shouldn't be delicious but absolutely is; it's one of life's little miracles), and stay up late talking girl talk. It will be full of fabulousness and shopping.
P.S. I'm not sure if you can really add a post script to a blog post, but I just realized I wrote this post at almost the same time last year when I was missing Chicago like crazy and it suddenly snowed. Maybe Austin is trying to help ease my into Southern, smaller-city life.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
(Scene: 6' x 6' soundproof box with a chair in the middle. There are large drawings of animals and other toys on the walls. Landon is in my lap ready to begin his hearing test)
Landon, can you find the elephant?
(several seconds pass as I hold myself back from repeating the question that I know he heard)
(turning his head to look at me)
Mama, I want a cracker!
(a little louder)
Landon, can you find the monkey?
Look mama, a el-e-phant!
(even louder because obviously my child is almost deaf)
Landon, can you find the train?
Mama, where did my crackers go?
Landon, can you listen to the sounds please? We'll have crackers later.
Landon, where is the elephant?
(points to the monkey)
Look mama! A monkey! Ooh-ooh-ah-ah.
(looking at the audiologist through the tiny window to my left)
I don't think this is working out.
So he failed the hearing test, but I'm certain he hears just fine. His talking has exploded in the past few weeks and he uses full sentences and adds dozen of new words each day. The test came about because Landon's ear tubes have fallen out and he immediately got infections in both ears. We realized this right before Thanksgiving and were able to get him into the pediatrician Tuesday afternoon for an ear check and prescription for delicious pink amoxycillin- his first antibiotic since his last ear infection in March 2008. The sad thing about these infections, besides the fact that they break our 18-month record of "nothing but check-ups", and that Landon holds his hears and cries when he goes to bed (a truly heartbreaking visual), is that it means he most likely inherited his dad's faulty eustachian tubes. JP has had too many ear surgeries to count and still has to wear special ear plugs and a cap every time he gets wet. We had hoped one round of ear tubes be all Landon needed, but one tube is only half-way out and he already had a raging infection going. We'll wait to see if he gets another in the next 6 weeks, and if he does, it'll be more tubes. The procedure itself is simple and far less traumatic than even one ear infection, I'm just sad for his sake that the problem persists.
But other than the ear test fail, our trip to the pediatric ENT was great. I had an admittedly "difficult" baby, so I don't feel too bad when I say it makes me happy and a teensy bit proud that Landon is so good and easy as a toddler. Out in public, at the house, at a Thanksgiving dinner for 10- he loves meeting and talking to new people and doesn't seem to have any inherently distructive tendancies. He loves to play with toys and kids and loves to run around (and "go FAST!"), but I almost never have to tell him not to touch something he shouldn't be touching or things like that. Who knows how long it will last, but it's really nice for now. He had all the nurses charmed in minutes and told everyone he passed in the halls that the doctor was going to "check my ears". When the doctor came in Landon gave him a huge smile and said "Hi!" and then repeated "gonna check my ears" as he climbed into the patient seat all by himself. On the way out he told everyone it was raining and that he was wearing his hat (the hoodie to his sweatshirt). It was very cute. I'm happy to say he seems to have no scars from his constant and frequently painful doctor visits during his first year of life.
In other health news, I had my real genetic screening ultrasound on Monday and everything looks fantastic! The baby was crazy, bouncing around and dancing the whole time, and it's fun to see how developed s/he looks at only 13 weeks at 3 inches long. My next doctor's appointment is in 2 weeks where I'll get to hear the heartbeat and then we'll find out the sex sometime in late January. Yay!