Tired

I am so tired. I don't think I've ever felt this run down. It's the kind of tired where you can still function and most of the time you feel fine, but when you sit and let yourself relax the exhaustion just starts washing over you in waves. I know I'm supposed to take naps and "sleep when the baby sleeps" and I think that is a great idea- it just never ends up happening. I'm not a napper and never have been. I had a severe case of mono my freshman year and I didn't even take naps then. It's really hard for me to unwind at night and fall asleep- it's nearly impossible to do that in the middle of the afternoon. There's always stuff to do, someone to talk to, a book to read- and I really value my baby-free productive time. The times when Landon is sleeping also seem to be the moments I feel the least tired. It's when he wakes up and wants to be held that I remember how exhausted I am. I don't want to wish away his babyhood, but it's going to be really nice when he sleeps more than 3-4 hours at a time.